This is a reality I witness a lot of people struggle against. Wanting a straightforward path to follow their hearts. A clear step-by-step A to Z process. They feel confused and disappointed in search of their hearts in this way.
Over the years I’ve been asked the same question in different forms. The essence of this question is how does the spirit world connect to our practical everyday life? And recently someone asked me this question about plant spirits.
When I follow the thread of when poisonous plants showed up in my life, I continue to discover that they called me much sooner than I consciously recognized. In fact, every few months they show me another moment in time when they called me and I wasn't quite ready to say yes. For example, recently my husband started reading a book that I read not quite a decade ago. And guess who stars in the first chapters of the book? Poisonous plants :)
From the impact of childhood traumas to the ancestral burdens we carry, there is wisdom in the poison of our wounding.
Recently I was catching up with a dear spiritual friend of mine that I haven’t spoken to for quite some time. But we’ve had deep spiritual conversations and attended retreats together on and off for the last eight years.
Bridgekeeper. This is a title I heard given to me from the Spirit world many years ago on retreat. It’s a word that keeps returning time and time again. During meditations. During dreams. Synchronicities. And during sacred reflection time.
As I’ve turned this word over in my mind, heart, and soul, I’ve come to know that part of my sacred work in the world centers on bridge keeping. Which of course makes me a bridgekeeper.
And now a real story about walking the path of personal and spiritual development...
Is this how it's supposed to be? It can't be how it's supposed to be. Not after THAT. This inner dialogue is familiar these days. To say I've been both surprised and not surprised by how it's been to be back from retreat is an understatement.
So I'm back home in the Washington, DC area after 10 days in the mountains of California. On land where the silence and stillness was so potent that the wings of a prey bird flying overhead sounded like a jet plane swooping by. As one can imagine, it's quite a jarring experience to come back to a world where sounds and stimulation is bountiful. And while I've been retreating in various locations with different teachers and returning to DC for nearly a decade now, it's still tough to come back...
So a couple weeks ago I wrote about rejection. This week I'm writing about...non-rejection.
What? Huh? What the heck is that? Honey let me tell you, only one of the most important things I've stumbled on since my days on Earth. It's like this permanent hall pass in the hallways of life to be 100% yourself. No questions asked.
There's seeing truth and then there's standing in truth. How often have you finally seen the truth in a situation, but then nothing changed? Why? Because it's safe. It's familiar. And dare I say, because we don't want to own the new information. We don't want to take responsibility. We don't want to stand in the Truth.
I wasn't planning to ask him a question. It was the end of day one of a two day meditation retreat with Anam Thubten and people started lining up to ask him their personal questions. "If you want to ask him a practice question, now is the time," urged the woman next to me. She had been part of the community for years. I clearly looked hesitant. "Don't be shy, this is your chance." Ok Universe. I hear you. I said to myself. It's always like that. I'm stubborn, and the Universe keeps nudging me along until it's blatantly apparent and then I give up on digging in my heels and walk.
Last Thursday when I was walking home from leading yoga teacher training I was feeling both a potent combination of blissed out and exhausted. I had been going for 14 hours, waken up at 4:30 am, and was overwhelmed in gratitude for the gift of teaching. What happened was one of the most shocking and awakening moments of my life...
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