Dear Clarity,
Where are you? Where have you been? We used to hang out, but now you’ve gone. I’ve patiently waited for you to come back, I’ve called and asked for you many times, and I’ve even held dreams ransom for you. Why are you so elusive?
This is a reality I witness a lot of people struggle against. Wanting a straightforward path to follow their hearts. A clear step-by-step A to Z process. They feel confused and disappointed in search of their hearts in this way.
Over the years I’ve been asked the same question in different forms. The essence of this question is how does the spirit world connect to our practical everyday life? And recently someone asked me this question about plant spirits.
When I follow the thread of when poisonous plants showed up in my life, I continue to discover that they called me much sooner than I consciously recognized. In fact, every few months they show me another moment in time when they called me and I wasn't quite ready to say yes. For example, recently my husband started reading a book that I read not quite a decade ago. And guess who stars in the first chapters of the book? Poisonous plants :)
From the impact of childhood traumas to the ancestral burdens we carry, there is wisdom in the poison of our wounding.
Recently I was catching up with a dear spiritual friend of mine that I haven’t spoken to for quite some time. But we’ve had deep spiritual conversations and attended retreats together on and off for the last eight years.
Bridgekeeper. This is a title I heard given to me from the Spirit world many years ago on retreat. It’s a word that keeps returning time and time again. During meditations. During dreams. Synchronicities. And during sacred reflection time.
As I’ve turned this word over in my mind, heart, and soul, I’ve come to know that part of my sacred work in the world centers on bridge keeping. Which of course makes me a bridgekeeper.
Over the last three weeks I’ve been busting through the three major myths that keep us stuck. They are not-so-sweet lies we tell ourselves to keep us from moving forward. The stories that make us pretend that we don’t deserve to be happy, to live the life that we daydream about, or to think that something could be different. This week I move onto myth #3: It's not my time.
Do you feel like your to do list is on repeat and you aren’t able to move things forward? Did another weekend pass by and the project you wanted to complete remains...incomplete? Is there always something more important that gobbles up the one thing you want to do? Do you always make time for everyone other than yourself?
I never thought I didn’t love myself.
If someone had asked me if I loved myself, I’m confident that my 20-something self would have said, “Yes.” The truth is, in subtle ways I neglected to honor my needs, my voice, my expression, my feelings…my being. This showed up in many ways. I worried about what other people needed and forgot what I needed. “What do you need?” was never a question I asked myself. I’d say “yes” when I really needed to say “no.” I’d allow people to dump their feelings on me in service of being a good listener. When I walked away from the conversation, I felt drained and emotionally beaten up. I avoided sharing my feelings or point of view to keep the peace.
“We can’t live without hope, ” says Gallup Senior Scientist Shane J. Lopez. As I prepared to lead many workshops over the last week and reflected on this week’s political transition, hope has been on my mind. That’s when I stumbled upon Shane Lopez’s research. According to his research, hope is both essential to our mental well being and contagious. As I watched students, friends, and strangers struggle with hope in this transitional time, I wondered, if hope is so essential how do we lose it?
Several weeks ago while talking with one of my healers she mentioned the year of 9. A nine year cycle ending in 2016, completing the personal development work we have been doing over the last nine years. It came up in conversation with her as I was reflecting on how challenging the year has been for myself and others. She told me that this year has been tough because it is a year of completion. A year where we burn off all the emotional energy of wounds ready to heal. Where we face the fears we are asked to face.
We often meet change with resistance. Trying to keep it at bay. Fearing how it will disrupt our comfort now. I asked students in my yoga classes this week with a show of hands how many people like change. 1% of students in each class raised their hands. I wonder, what would happen if we met change as the best friend rather than the fearful foe? If we not only embraced change, but invited change to the table of our life?
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